she's at it again. someone save me. God? where are You?
i cant live with her. nobody understands this. i'm tearing up inside.
"you are responsible of the family now"
"escape is not the solution"
"you have to be there to support her and care for her"
her. her. her. what about me? does tat give a good reason why i shld be mentally tortured? does tat make a good excuse for me to breakdown mentally and emotionally? i dun wan to lose myself. i cannot lose myself. i have too much to do. i have to complete my uni, get my degree, fulfill my dreams and ambition, settle down with the man i love. is tat so difficult for me to do? why is she trying so hard to screw up my life, destroy my dreams? i dun understand. at all. now that he is in hospital, i'm left alone to face all these. can someone understand that i cannot handle all these?
baby i dun wan u to lose me overnight. i'm trying very very hard. struggling to survive through all these.
i have nothing. he and my girls are all that i have now.
God, love me, show me.